life as I know it…

after a brief respite from the normal academic routine,it’s back to the usual now….and you are expected to switch from the mode of utter euphoric to another,that of a studious sincere student as if you are an android,operated by a mechanical remote control.

for 3-4 days you are a part of the immense human population that converges at one place to have fun. the last event ends on sunday night,you say tata-goodbye to outgoing friends,then you loaf around to savour the last bits of whatever is left,then there is the customary analytical meeting where you discuss and analyse all the happenings during the last few days and come out with certain logical conclusions (yes,they are logical…believe me), then you want to spend some time with your sis who is leaving the next morning but there is an 8 o’ clock class to attend the next morning,that too of the sit-through course of your BTP guide;so you decide that it’s better to go to sleep.you hardly sleep for 3 hrs when the alarm goes off and you have no choice but to get up and run for classes.

you are no more used to get up so early and with all the nightouts you cannot manage to be in time for breakfast( that’s the case even at other times though),you reach the class late.but you are still unfazed, taking heart in the fact that there are not too many classes today and the rest of the day is chill.but just then,you get a call in the middle of a lecture.you risk expulsion from the class by picking it up only to find that it’s your BTP guide who tells you to come and meet him at 11am.you reach him and then he gives you work.you miss your lunch too because you are working.at 3pm you tell him that you have a class hoping that atleast now you have a chance to get away,but he doesn’t let you go reasoning that BTP is more important.you are bubbling with anger but there is nothing you can do.you stay in the lab till 5pm, the reason that you can now leave is that they have to close the lab.

could my BTP be any more pain than what it already is. it seems like this is the only thing left in the life now.cannot go home,b’cause i’m supposed to meet him even on saturdays…..oh god! are you there???…..buzz…

life has become so monotonous. i need a break.the exams start next week after which there is a 8-day break.i just hope that he lets me off for this period atleast.but knowing him,i better be prepared for spending my break in the holy pursuit of completing my BTP….

whoever reads this…..please pray for me.i need blessing and lots of them.

third day today into the cult fest of my institute…
it has been going okay.the events are not much to write home about.they are pretty much the same every year.the only difference this year being the arrival of a few friends from another place.i won’t write whether it was good or bad…

my sis is here this weekend.but oddly enough,it’s my friends who are getting to spend more time with than me.we’ve hardly had a conversation since she came,barring the one tonight.there is always somebody or the other at my room(not that i mind it) and it’s then tough to talk to her the way i do when alone with her.she’s sort of my counsillor and psychological guide and having have to stay away from this aspect of our relationship doesn’t feel so good.

on the nocturnal front…i’d planned to sleep it out tonight to be perked up tomorrow but lady luck wanted it the other way.there was already my sis staying at my room and upon that,i also had to let stay a friend’s sis.coincidentally,all my friends slept early this particular day and now,there is no place for me to sleep,which means….another nighout.makes me wonder…have i turned insomniac??? i hope not.

ok now that friend’s sis is getting up.she’s leaving in hour or so.maybe then i’ll be able to catch some sleep.

what a day!
seriously…..what a day!!!
a day of auditing courses, withdrawing courses, having started attending the sit-through A slot course [class at 8am ], lots and lots of skyping, gtalking [did anybody say yahoo!...sounds familiar], fun with concealed, assumed, guessed, mistaken and revealed identities, wasting time, procrastination, sloth, etc. etc.
this place is too short to write about today. and i won’t even try

sloth is lovely, tempting and easy
but work is keeping me busy
colloq to do before i sleep
btp to do before i sleep…..

(my apologies to mister robert frost here ;P)

wht a day..followed by …what a night,or rather a nightout!
had classes from 8am(early mornings make me sick…urghhhh),then time for btp.spent ( or wasted?) whole of my afty there trying to figure some stuff out and well..made a little progress.
had a taste of post-monsoon showers today.was returning from insti when it started to rain.couldn’t stop myself from stepping out in the rain.was soaked to the skin by the time i reached hostel.but ’twas fun.
at the moment still working on the presentations and the report.also trying to find some respite from the grind,watching shawshank redemption(one of the best movies ever made) side by side…..”they send you for life here and that’s what they take from you”…morgan freeman just said that..
well then….let’s try to marofy some fight to complete the work…another nightout ahead

on 13 was my best friend’s b’day(happy b’day dear)
this time around,we planned a small surprise get-together for her.bought a b’day cake & invited everyone without letting her get even an iota of a hint.to make the things more dramatic,we kept scolding her for not doing anything special on this day.oh,it was so much fun watching her trying to explain while we pretended not to listen a thing
just as it was striking 12 all of us gathered to finally reveal the surprise.the rest was just as it always is….with the bumps & a small snack at nescafe & stuff.wud hv done more if it wasn’t for tht stupid assignment to be submitted the next day…

moving on….still have no idea what i’m gonna do in my btp presen or colloq presen.
but there is still time.i’ll surely figure something out.

P.S.:im feeling so homesick now (………have stayed at home for only a few hours in the last more than 4 months.

finally……after infinite attempts and numerous failures,i was able to get back my sleep,and 14 hours at that.and i feel great. pity that it had to be so when i was loaded upto the neck with work . i have a colloq and a btp presentation this week on consecutive days.could it be any worse?
my progress in btp is just shy of null.still haven’t done anything to speak of.god knows what i’ll do in my presen or write in the report.the same goes for colloq.
enuf of tp for now.let’s try getting back to work ……gotta meet my guide tomorrow preparing for that.

wth is wrong with me,my friends ask….why can’t i sleep like normal people do(the definition of normal being highly subjective). of late,i have been spending sleepless nights and nightless sleeps doing nothing really.my stupid bodyclock doesn’t want to revert to what is usually perceived as normal(normal being subjecive here too) either.there has hardly been a day in the last month or so when i went to sleep before 3:30 or 4 am.
as a friend keeps telling me….”u know what,God made day and night to indicate the time to sleep and to get up”….what the hell!!! if God made day and night then he also made diurnals and nocturnals(like me,maybe)…..so coming back to “normal”…how do u define ‘normal’ now????

P.S.:a thought by michl….”exceptions confirm the presence of rules”………how true!!!

finally got to hear frm britta,doc & michl,all in the same week….can’t believe my luck!!!
it’s simply amazing…the effect that a mail can have on you.a mail is nothing but an assortment of a few words but it can make or break your day.in all the above cases it was the former:D…
it feels so nice to know that someone somewhere half way across the globe is thinking about you,despite all the thousands and thousands of miles separating you from them.it’s at times like these that you start believing in the interconnectedness of everything..of being a part of the whole.there is definitely something that connects you to the rest of the world…..ok i agree it’s crap….anyway.
meanwhile,the minor exams( nomenclature being a misnomer here) are on.i’m supposed to be studying at this hour but kya karein this is the only time that internet picks up some speed for one to actually be able to do some work.( excuses!!!excuses!!!!! )…….
ok now…wasted enough time…let’s go back to study.got two exams tomorrow.