after four consecutive days of not attending a single class,today i woke up with full enthusiasm to attend all the classes.but some things are not meant to be.my BTP guide was in the worst mood ever and i could not afford to leave the lab without showing him some work,which translates into another F slot bunk….
after much proscrastination i got my act together thinking that let today be the lucky day when i start work on my BTP for this sem. but some things are not meant to be. the guide demanded that the lab inventory be updated and i was left doing it till past lunchtime…..
i was eagerly awaiting for this huge company,so that i could try my luck with placements.but some things are not meant to be.they prescribed a cgpa cut-off which i missed by a whisker….
after enormous cajoling i had persuaded a friend to start playing squash regularly with me.but some things are not meant to be.she pushed herself too hard the first day itself and today was in no condition to as much as lift her hand……
after trying so hard and going through so much of self denial,i had convinced myself of the non-availabilty of a guy i had a crush on and made myself strong enough to not to think too much about him.but some things are not meant to be.i hate to admit it but watching him showering his affection on another girl made me mad…..
finally,i wanted to keep away from instant messengers and net-surfing as far as possible .but some things are not meant to be…..no rational excuse here 
January 2006
January 28, 2006
January 18, 2006
i was just listening to “affirmation” by Savage Garden when this thought crept into my mind……….
in a relationship, what does loyalty mean and how important is it?
does it mean sticking with the same person forever?
which is more important?…
a…monogamy
b…trust
to start with, let’s drop the crap about morality and ‘if you really love someone you won’t even think about anybody else’, blah blah….
really, what would you rather have? a person who says he loves you but doesn’t hesitate in getting his sexual desires fulfilled elsewhere occassionally; or a person who is monogamous but cann’t help fantasizing about others?…..going by the bookish description of love ( i cann’t comment on what love is owing to lack of experience in the field ), ‘if you really love someone, set him free.if he returns to you he loves you. if he does not,he never was’.but then,how many people can actually let go of all the negative emotions like jealousy, envy, greed,selfishness etc. while dealing with a matter as sensitive as this?
why go far.if i see myself in this kind of situation, i think even i won’t be able to get rid of an element of selfishness. it’s but human to strive to get the best of all the worlds. on one hand, you expect your partner’s inherent trust in you that you won’t go astray.on the other, at some small place in your mind, you yourself are sceptical about trusting your partner completely…
hmmm……..human beings are so hypocritical.
