the final year at college is drawing to a close and it’s about time to leave. how am i feeling???…..well nothing as of yet. maybe because of so many other things that have been going on around me……extension of BTP….mysterious change in gap’s behaviour…sudden realisation that i still haven’t found flatmates….an unexpected long silence from people in Germany(all of Britta,Markus, Tassilo and Michl)….the extremely high weight of guilt due to Nainital trip….etc etc…
but sometimes when we sit together and discuss how will life be after we step out of here and step into the real world, i get scared. not because i dont find myself capable of handling any kind of challenges,but because i worry that we won’t be able to maintain as good a friendship as we have now………ok so we have decided that we’ll take a vacation together every year and be in touch but i’m not sure if everyone is really going to do that.
watching ‘Dil Chahta Hai’ yesterday deepened this worry…as it is, not all of us friends would be living in the same state,leave alone the city. perhaps we’ll find a new group at our new workplace or at home and life will go on as ever. we’ve been doing this all our life,haven’t we?
first we left behind kindergarten friends,then high school,then secondary school,maybe now it’s turn to leave college friends behind.